Wow, what a monumentally crazy time we are living in. Never did I think I would see something like this happen in my lifetime. A few short weeks ago I didn’t think this was a big deal, I was sick of hearing about it. I thought it was crazy that people had only just started considering washing their hands and were fighting in supermarkets.

Now, a couple of weeks later, I’ve been forced way out of my normal comfort zones (anyone who knows me, knows I love my routine). I also like to hide emotions and have a very good poker face, something I’d already been working hard on. All that has been thrown up in the air and there have been many emotions in the last week. I wanted to share a few:

Sadness

For every single person who is affected by this in some way (which is literally all of us). For every business that had to close either short or long term. That I would need to work at home. That my gym closed. That lots of things had to be cancelled. That I have to disappoint job hunters who have found themselves out of work.

Anger

For the same reasons as above. Why are we going through this? Just when things were going well! Why aren’t people listening and following guidelines? Don’t they realise that the sooner we do this, the sooner we can get through it?

Panic 

Is my job safe? What will I do without it? How can I be of more value to my company? How do I approach clients/candidates without being insensitive? What about the state of the economy? When will this end?

Gratitude

To all of the health and key workers that put themselves at risk every day. For the fact I still have a job. That I have a home, food and my health. That I can still exercise and get outside. For the people I can talk to every day. That I can still find reasons to laugh. I am heart warmed by all the love going around, seeing people come together is inspiring. There are many positives if we choose to look for them.

Acceptance

Finally, I am adjusting and starting to accept that I can’t control any of this, but I can control how I respond to it. I’m learning something new everyday. I actually enjoy being at home. 

I realise that some of the above makes me look quite selfish and that’s something else I’m battling with. But we are human, and feelings aren’t right or wrong, they just are. Who else is feeling like this? I would love to hear your experiences and offer my support in whatever way I can. If nothing else, I hope that I will learn a lot from this situation.

Much love

Jade x